Grace

 You died 

And the traumatic attachment

Of your death, 

Tore me in two. 

You, and what you must've been through

I still wish to grant you reprieve

From every wrongdoing dealt. 

Life does not allow for what is not

Meant to be. 

And you were meant to be

In the exact design of all you were

And all you serve in memory. 

Whatever you liked,

Deserved your amiable affections 

Your keen assertions 

Accepted. 

There exists a line

Between the action, and

The motive 

Of you.

For all your unspoken reasoning 

Brutal wisdoms flowed. 

I took your word, 

Your look, 

Your unwavering language

Took them all to heart, 

And ate their meaning

In the hope that I would better understand

And deserve your trust. 

The inhalation of my sensitivity

Cooked your nerves

My comprehension levels took a while

To catch up with deeper understandings. 

And in your ever-after

There is no flower I would  not pick

Or pilgrimage after

To lay in honor

At the altar of all you were

And Are. 

Privileged to have come

From 

You.

This Day

 Twisted streams of consciousness

Pecking at me now

The low tapping begun a decade ago

Marks its permanence

With a pronouncement of this day. 

And what of the next, forgetful distracting 

Doing enough to sustain this blunt erosion

Routing frustrations into elsewhere, 

Wherever elsewhere may be. 

Cold walls emphasize their berated presence

They go nowhere, without instruction

And instruction has instructed them to stay, 

Despite the chilly fucked metaphors they bring. 

Whatever these means employ

However they do to see fit these needs

To bang with impunity the need to starve on

The end and processed result is

Putrid.

Bleak outlines, revisit themselves

To look into grayed lavender

That once stood tall in warmth

Accepting and openly deserving

The right to touch and be touched. 

Estranged am I, to who my body became

A dilapidated vessel of comfort, 

Unused, unkempt, and

Denied. 

Shared

 " ... how they seem. "

Fog of night, descending

The drawl of slumber, creeping nearby

Emotional wreckage, repaired quietly

Succinctly, explained in keen format. 

Top, taken for a ride

Into the atmosphere of gargantuan claims

That playwrights write woefully 

Of the brilliance burned into stars. 

Deep tales of intrinsic wonder

Woven into song sung openly

Of lives lived in ode,

To the avenues of their calling. 

Oh ballad beware

Your sturdy tortures do float 

And land ever so softly 

Amid shoulders worth bearing. 

Give to Get

In removing useless adjectives

We obtain truer truths

Inching closer to bones the require

Baring. 

Fangs are for show

Puncturing never, 

The purpose in sharing. 

Cryptic sideshow, overlapping intent

To blur the audience into distraction

Results may surface. 

Who we are and how we speak

We are closer to the monument of

All we might 'suppose'.

The quiet between us

Is daring me into

Prepatory behavior;

These musings, 

Sublime. 

Old Envelopes

Legitimacy

Details

Dates on forms. 

Inconsistencies in ink. 

History

Works its way 

Into the dashboard

Of today. 

Saved. 

Sacrifices performed

To open borders

Beckoning a life

Treasured. 

Love

Moving 

Mountains

Modicum of Truth

In dreams

Patterns suffice 

A mother, her boy

A mother, a boy. 

Fatherless sons 

Roam. 

White mausoleums

Ascending

As errant dreamers 

Subside. 

Invisible scars

Connecting. 

Infantile

Infantile subjugation 

When all along we are aware

Of the secondary conversation. 

Prime points taken

And that is, after all, THE 

Prime point. 

Injection of idea

Into layers of habit

That ultimately, potentially

Lay the foundation

For 'better' to begin. 

I need not gratification

Beyond that of simple truths

That passive needs gather courage

And swim, in possible futures 

Where groundwork once laid

May prove fruitful

Before the final sunset

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