Two In One Day

Take to the quiet- he says
To find yourself.
To find yourself, then what

Rhetoric takes the stage
A principal player-
No less.

Turn in to the recess of self
Explore to implore all the chatter
To die down.

To lie down
To roam unto the black phase
Where sense of self is waiting.

Vulnerability has lips
That part and dream of exposure
To breathe & breathe with- the unknowing.

To give up
To give in- to dive deeply into naked planes
To temperatures devoid of notice

Supplanting man's ministrations
For the lesser good to none
But One- to have- to know- truth.

Red striations prove inferior
To tear and tear again, agression belongs
Widening the expanse of all I think I know.

Redundancy- the antithesis of
All my motivation. Elaboration here
Tangled- strangled- mute.

Rage beats the organs that flex
Burning to find more coal to chew through
To melt- molt- and ignite.

The irrelevance of punctuation
Finally struck dumb in this quest for quiet.
Comma, period. Colon: goodnight.

To Understand Nothing

Say nothing
When nothing
Is worth saying.
Clever tidbits
Taunt.

Place to enter
No words follow
Eyes to backs
Nonexistent.
Singularity
Owned.

Life as known
Negating all nouns
Cognition slinks
Devoid. Stripped
Deleted
Being.

Into nothing
Rather, away from
All. A moment's piece
Instigated. Courage
Lost of itself
This world.

Societal rot
Spreading disease
Of trend. Of tried
Of 'coolness'
Humans- contracted
Myopic belief.

Generosity is
Hunted for, stolen
Ravaged ..and dismissed.
Ethical pillars
Take the beating, advantage
Played out.

I wish to abandon
All words- waning
That wax themselves
To dust. As their truths
Lie in wait of fresh
Idiocies.

Disoriented
These strenuous paths
Playing me out.

I belong where
The needle meets thread
The inks spill freely and
The paint never dries.

Where concept springs
Eternal.
Along the whim
Of its own
Fancy.

Correct

I find myself curdling on the inside
Too long spent wrapped
In the winter of my own arms.
Defrosting the mindset
That brought me here is
Incorrigible.

The Landing

Words like 'behoove' seek to conjure
Strong meaning.
Blips of neglect continue
To blow preferred points
The haze of stretched moments
Blister poignant momentum
Feeding irritants I loathe.

Irascible surge of
Graceless synonyms
Blunders my skull
Contusions now breathe
Fresh oxygen-
This- this is- wasted revenue.
My planet of One, at War.

Distracted by spices
This tangle of urges is
Indecisive. Intolerant of
Its own indecision.
The burdens grow then instantly
Dissipate... aware of
The unattractive labels they bring

Scent trapped in aura
Wrapped in rhythm
Begging rhyme.
Gypsy incantations
Tickle psyches trained well-
To obliterate untamed preferences
My cautious roots, tautology - defined.

These are questions drowned
Without Answers.
An affliction of meaningless proportion
I am the battering ram of all I turn
My back on.
I take the blow and stick the landing
It is what I am best at.

He Sings...

Deep baritone belting
'Power over me....'
Looking to park thickness
Into steady waves.

Resume

Philosophical hush
Softens the bruise
Rushed particles
...outrunning logic, peace
Normalcy.

Doom- flooded
Angst balloons
My devices are worn
Wise, well-intentioned,
Wickedly short fused.

The hard edge is broad
Defined by specifics
Whirling about in survival mode
Instinctual enzymes,
Multiplying.

This list, unbeknownst
Misunderstood.
Intentional.
Consumption of energies
Coming down.

Who are we but minstrels
To our own demise?
Chanting however audible
To corners beset on all sides...
Bandwidth- exhausted

We grow- we widen
We billow out more sails
Eroding the conscience of
'Jumped to' conclusions
Forgiven.

Perspectives now stat
Heartrate resting
Putrified stresses- purified
Hunting for a muse
Once more.

...acts...

Words embalmed in acts of service
Ruminating meaning.
Playing with too many variables
Noise escalating

I will strip away the static-
Soon,

...to mold the use of deeper meanings.

Be True

The willingness
Was never up for grabs
It has always been who I am.
Devoted is- my normal order
Innate.
To live in honesty,
Integrity,
Accountability;
Immune from all disparaging influence
The inner ticking serves me well.
To the truth- be true.

Square 1

Language
Evolving.
Descriptive efficacy;
To answer myself
I investigate.
Widening my understanding
To better comprehend
Progress and intuition.

Cat's Eye

Nebula
Inexplicable
Beauty
Engorged
Turn
To fill
The void of inefficacy.

TFU

Labor this way, though its uselessness
Already understood.
The brain and her tendencies
These patterns contribute to unrest.
What morning on which horizon
Can a disruption form?
This trusted crust enslaving me
Powerful- conditional- undermining.

Goop skims this surface
Gulping down aged garbage
Still a meal that I arrange.
Tacked on... to my tended to life
And grown in with roots that run deep.

I cannot say that I want anything
With this wide belt of 'shut up'
Strapping my back, my brains, my body.
This Monday offers me choices
The disposition I'm in keeps me fat on the sadness
Of broken branches
And traumatic brain injuries.

I need nothing, perhaps
But an ounce of an ass-kicking
To shut me TFU.

Time, Understood.

Obligatory preference
The morning yawns
I follow.
Whirring mechanisms
Toiling as told
A light push of buttons
Time, understood.

Capturing locks
Confined atop one peak
And then tilted back
Allowing the lukewarm ritual
Entry.
Sunday is writing itself...
I translate.

Thinly stripped fibers
Unsightly holes
The combination here, is, too-
Familiar.
Yet I adore such familiarity
Mine as I have chosen
Preferences.

Freewill is everywhere
As evidenced,
Books on shelves over which
I preside.
Granted, not taken for granted
A mix of interests-
Come and gone.

Someday
Time should be taken
To learn the comma, and
The clause.
That perfection of arrangement
Can match the age
Time... Understood.

On this Inside.

Obsolete freedoms, and
Over-stayed welcomes
Tire the organs within
But there is none to be done
On this inside.

Rusted, pathless avenues
Meander nowhere.
Erogenic enclaves
Studied- no more.
This destination, intended.

The spoils of inner warfare
Breed redundant clauses
That monstrous pyrrhic victories
Can be- just that.
Earning their sticky, fucked titles.

Badge of nothing.
But, respect understands.
One way to follow; to pioneer time
Taking tools earned in practice
Resembling salvation.

I am here.
As is intended.
Dark hair tumbling over shoulders...
Stronger than imagined.
Resilience has grown in- gray.

The right hand understands
The undetectable whisper
Between head and heart.
In them, I trust.
Instincts- obeyed.

Relatives

Nothing lingers
That wasn't built to stay.
They work through theirs
As I work through mine.
This is bigger than me.
Self-pity - awash.
Loathe the variables-
Love the memories.